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Mr. Foe-felon

It's absolutely amazing; The feelings that one person can stir up inside another. Quite jarring. My heart is racing, my hands are shaking and I'm bleary eyed, all from a little friend request on facebook. Just seeing his picture made me nauseous. I am awestricken to experience the change that has happen within myself- to feel so completely opposite about someone than I did years ago. I have not forgiven him, or myself for the damage that was caused. I feel so ashamed to have loved him, ever. It seems like such a foreign emotion to give to a monster. He may have changed; Turned his life around. I hope so! I wish the best for him, but hell if I'm going to stick my neck into that disaster to find out! When I said I never wanted to speak to him again; I meant every word to the core of it's essence. I don't even want to encounter him in the afterlife. I know I'm not that important to him. I hope that he completely forgets about me once my name and face both vanish from his computer screen. I hope I don't pop into his conniving brain again, even a bit. Hope I vanish from his universe.

I hope he can one day understand the magnitude of what he did to my family, and I. I feel so guilt ridden and shameful for trusting him, for letting him, *for helping him*. When a person feels this way, the only thing to be done is: Make sure I don't allow myself to commit the same ignorance again.

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betweenthelynes
Nov. 5th, 2012 02:28 am (UTC)
*hugs*
-Leander
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