How've you been? Lately I've been missing God. It has been the quiet time, which follows every deep, emotional inquiry I direct to Him. This is when I shut my mouth, and let Him answer, and also when I attempt to glorify Him with what He has invested in me by doing more than verbally, or textually thanking Him. I have been making a mistake though- common and easy to make- it is far from small, or simple to live with until it is addressed and corrected-
I have been feeling ashamed to pray. I know i am inadequate in comparison to what i could be- what i will be if i point myself direct-me at God. How can i expect to accomplish this by turning away? This is when I need Him most- when i know how unworthy i am of His grace; this puts me in the perfect position to respect and appreciate the magnitude of His unconditional Love... Every thought that runs through my mind can't ever really hide from God, no matter what I want- so instead of acting out this sense of shame by foolishly trying to conceal my inadequacy-i feel like waste- i need to put myself, bare, transparent, and completely to His disposal.

Thank you! Your mutual interest, admiration, and love in God has given me the nudge i needed to confront this thorn. Hoping maybe my presence does the same for you.
❤