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Crostaire, you're a prickly pill.

On some level, I know I should stop talking to him all together because of how much it hurts me. I was correct to make that call, but I feel like I cheated myself in some ways by being upfront with him about it. I'll miss out on how it feels to get a message from him, and not respond, knowing that he will, if only briefly, wonder why I haven't replied. He was just so easy to say, "alright, bye". He didn't fight for me. He has been one of my closest friends for 6-7 years, and it's really difficult for me to swallow this prickly pill. I am so self critical, so understand that I mean it when I give myself a compliment: I deserve to be loved.
If I keep him in my life, I believe this cut will continue to bleed. I don't see the possibility of moving past it without at least giving my heart a rest. I hope that I don't permanently lose him, but deep down, I feel like this is it.

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