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still missin you

I know that if I had stayed, the future would not outlast all the fun we had in the past. I knew I made the right decision when I said goodbye. I would rather remember you fondly then walk away thinking only of the hurt. Don't get me wrong... There is plenty of hurt to go around too.

But I cant help myself from thinking of you still. You run through my thoughts more than I'd like to admit to myself. My mind still elects you to be the perfect candidate to be my knight in shining armor.

I still crave you when I get cold...even though I know you wouldn't want to cuddle me. I still wonder what it would be like for you to hold me in your arms, though you've never..ever had the desire to get close to me, I've always had a need for you, since when? I can't be sure.

the homegirls admitted that you and the guys were more protective over me than you were of them. They always knew that we had something more between us. But it was never going to happen, and I was a fool to sit and wait, thinking that I could make you see me..thinking that I could make you love me.

what a fucking idiot. I wasted so much of myself on you.
and here I am still writing you...still loving you.
I don't know if I'll ever truly stop, but I owe it to myself to try.

I'm still missin' you.

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(Anonymous)
Oct. 2nd, 2009 11:04 pm (UTC)
yeah
you should really move on.
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